A quick insite to my life

Do you ever wake up and wonder "Why am I here"? I often do this and still haven't really found an answer to this question. The best that I can come up with is that I'm here because I wasn't good enough to be there. If I was there life would be so much easier. I wouldn't have to worry about what's going on here; who's here; what are they doing here; how long they have been here, to name a few. Instead i could just spend the rest of my life thinking about how great it is there. Maybe one day I'll meet you here and we can go over there together.